Blvd. of Broken Dreams

Countdown!!!

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 03:41:47 GMT

7 days till prom
48 days till graduation
50 days till Maine

WOOO HOOOO i am soo excited! Every one needs to go on and listen to Ingram Hill. they are a really good band starting up and are trying to get known by people. SO go to www.lyrics.com and they are one of the choices with the CD covers to listen to. Listen to them cause they are awesome. Later

LONG TIME!!!!!!!

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 03:42:54 GMT

Ok well its been a long time since i wrote in here, but anyway I have been having a very Craptastic and stressful day. Term papers really sucks major butt. Its been so stressful right now that i'm going to be pulling all of my hair out which isn't good especailly before prom. I can not wait until the day that I turn that in and be done with that crap. Thats honestly when school is over for all seniors cause no one really cares after that. Ok well back to this effin paper. Later

WOOO HOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 03:47:53 GMT

So everything is coming together for Senior Week. WOOOOOO HOOOOO!!!! So exciting. We are finalizing on house by next week and calling to reserve it. I thought this would never get done, but Kerry, K Bone, adn me all took action and found a couple houses and getting it done. This will be one fun time. And I finally get to party with K Bone. We've been trying since freshman year and now 4 years later it is here. YAY!!!! We are going to have one hell of a time. And along with senior week, comes the thinking about prom. Its hard to believe that it is in 4 months. I mean where has the time gone. I am excited about it, but who the hell am I going to go with. That's the # 1 thing I need. Hopefully it will all fall into place like last year did. Only that I get a dress soon, so I can have the one I wanted first, NOT saying my dress was bad. But yes we are all planning to get a trolly. What fun would that be, and the cost will be cheap. Thats the way I like things to be, CHEAP. So hopefully everything will come together like it is with S.W.

Yea right now I am getting really pissed with school. Well only a few class there. Lit, Physics, and Pre Calc. Lit I just can not bear to sit through it anymore. Just walking to that class I go insane. Physics still understand a damn thing and even when you ask for help, she just does it for you anyway. That's not going to help me on those hard ass test. And Pre Calc, where do I begin with that. I want to stab myself in the eyes with my pencil every time I walk into that room. Its just horrible. I want to drop those 3 classes and just have study halls. It will be much more fun and relaxing for me. OK well I am out like a fat kid in dodgeball. Later <3

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 06:11:50 GMT

Happy New Year everyone! Hope you all had a great time last night/today. I know I did. I can't believe it is already 2005. I can remember it turning 2000 like it was just yesterday. But now it is 2005 and it is going to be a great year. We all will be graduating in 5 months WOOOO HOOO (i can't wait to be done). But yea so I was just posting for the first time in the new year. If anyone made a new years resolution I hope that you can keep it. I usually don't make one b/c I can never keep them, but this year I decieded to make one. I hope that I can do it.

Oh yea and for all of you that want to know, they are still happening. This is about a month now. OK well i am going to try and get some sleep now and start resting up for stupid ass school on Monday. Damn it. this sucks ass. again HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! later <3

Christmas Vacation!!!!!

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 06:11:56 GMT

SO i have officaly come to HATE computers with a passion. I had typed everything in this stupid journal and ready to post when everything just dissappeared. Where did it go. Who the fuck knows. But now I have to type it all over again and honestly I don't even remember what I had on here in the first place. Computers are worthless pieces of plastic that cost so much money and are always breaking down or jsut being plan retarted. But I would rather be pissed off than pissed on. lol OK well I am done with complaining about this.

So Christmas break was going pretty good up unitl today. I don't know why but now I am ready to go back to school. I know what am I thinking, but I actually like going to school this year. NO problems like last year and I am having a lot of fun. As my mom says she is not paying for me to go to school to have fun, but I can't help it. Having fun comes natural to me :-D. But anyway I hope that everyone's break is going good and that your Christmas was good and that you got everything you wanted. I did and MUCH MORE lol

So yea for everyone that knows about this, they are still happening. I have no idea what to do. I mean I like what goes on, but they really need to stop because I am starting to lose sleep over this because I need to wake up. I can not finish the dream. It would be really tramatic to me if I do I think. But in another why I want to see what happens all the way through. What am I going to do and what they HELL does it mean?

Anyway New Years Eve is coming up soon, and this is going to be a great one this year. For everyone who is coming, it is still going on.I know I'm a little slow letting you all know about it, but I will be calling you all soon and give you the details on everything. We are going to have tons of fun! K12 party tomorrow at Jen's house. I am excited!!! But anyway this is all I can remember writing about before so I done with this. This time it better post the damn thing or I will be pissed. OK well I am out like a fat kid in dodgeball!!! Later <3

Weekly update!!!!!!!!

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 23:20:09 GMT

So here's my update..... This week has been really shitty in general. I can't stand to come home anymore cause I'm always getting into a fight with someone here or just getting yelled at for no reason. So I have been trying to find things to keep me busy so I don't have to and so far I am good for after school. I have joined yearbook and now they are starting the committee for Prom so I joined that too. Now I only need to find something to do between the hours of 9 and 11pm. That's usually when it all gets bad because everyone is home. I finially got a letter from a college but all it said was they are still reviewing my application. So I'm thinking I'm not getting into that college, which is Scranton. But it really doesn't bother me cause that isn't my number 1 or 2 choice. Its more like 4th. Oh yes and a little fact for everyone NEVER I repeat NEVER drink Mountain Dew and eat sour watermelons at the same time because you will have such a sugar rush and it will def. wake you the hell up I was up until 3 in the morning when I did that and got up at 630 for school. I was not functioning to great that day.

Went out last night with Laura L, Laura P, Michelle, Uyen, Sarah, III (thats a nickname for someone unknown), and Katie, we all went to Bonanza. It was good times. I love those girls so much. Thank God for Karios, or I would have never gotten to know them and we would have never hung out. They are soo much like me and crazy. "I'm shooting white stuff at Jovanna with my penis," quote III That was hilarious. And leaving a penis with the tip for our waiter. Wonder what he was thinking when he saw that.

So I have been having this dream about a certain person for some time now. I'm about on my fifth or sixth dream now and I don't know if i should be worried about it or just go with them. I know this might sound crazy to some people, but when I have realistic dreams, at some point in time they do occur. Realistic meaning that it could actually occur in my life. Like I had a dream that I married NIck Carter when I was younger and I know that would never happen. But yea so these are def. realistic and I would like them to happen but I don't know if the person they are about would. I don't know what to do. I guess I'm just going to wait and see if I have anymore and then I will have to decide.

So Christmas is a week away and I am no where near close to being ready. I still have my mom and dad to shop for and then all my friends, By this point I am done and watching everyone else freak out about all this but this year it is me freaking out. I have no idea in hell what I'm getting my parents. They are always the hardest people to shop for but I always get by. They really need to get some hobbies that I can always be buying something for them like most people. My dad already has every cooking thing possible that he could use and my mom's antique stuff is way crazy and don't have the money to buy her stuff. But we will see what happens. Ok well that's about all the excitment going on in my life right about now. Next week hopefully there will be an update. Later <3

WOOOOOO HOOOOOO

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 05:04:19 GMT

Ok so its been like forever since I have written on here. I don't even remember when I wrote.

Well I went on kairos and have come back, obviously. Let me tell you that was the best experience of my life. I talked with old friends and got to know them more. Talked with new people and made new friends, which I loved and saw how awesome they are. I felt that we were a great group and that everyone was open to everything we did and I didn't have to hide everything. Group five is the best "ITS ALL GOOD" LOL It is just so undescribable. If would suggest going if you have the chance. You will LOVE IT.

Kaits party was Saturday that just passed. It was sooo much fun the wangs vs chas in Tabu. Great game right there. It was a great end to a crappy day cause I had to get up at 630 for ACTS which I didn't take seriously. But o well I honstly could give two shits about it right now.

School is driving me crazy like always, but that will never change. All I have to do it get by with good grades and just hope that it goes by fast, which it is b/c its already Christmas and after we come back from that break its over like that.

Ok well thats about it. I'm trying to keep it short so I won't be writing a book anymore according to Kristin lol LAter

Study Hall!

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 14:43:40 GMT

OK so I am in study hall now because Mr. Ferris isn't here today. He had to take his son back to the doctors. But today after school we leave for Kairos. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I am soooooo excited. It took me forever to pack last night. It felt like it was never ending. My mom said it looked more like I was moving out of the house than going away for a weekend. But I'd rather have more clothes than not enough. Yesterday I wasn't having that great of a day. Got a paper back from my lit teacher who was looking at it again and it still has the C on it. I don't understand how a teacher can give me a B then change it to a C based on other people's paper's. I will def. be trying to fight this more. Than I got a suprise quiz in Physics. The fact that the information was not in the book kinda does not help in taking the quiz. I didn't even fill out one answer to a question even with the book right infront of me. How ridiculiuos is that. And this week has not been good at all altogether, i just broke down crying at that point. I could not take it anymore. But then when I went home my mom made my day so much more better. I got an early christmas present. WOO HOOO It was a new cell phone...camera phone to be exact. She had to give it to me early because we had to activate them or it would cost more money if we waited. SO she gave it to me last not and I had to activate them all. Really didn't care much because I GOT A NEW CELL PHONE. hahah it def made me sooo much more happier. I love it. OK well I am going to study hall is almost over. Later

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 04:54:19 GMT

So here I am yet again posting my anual 2 week post as it seems like now. There is just never enough time to do everything that I have to. Half the time I just go to bed not caring anymore about homework and all that crap. I actually tried this quarter to keep up my grades because I didn't want them falling and college's see that. But did it work...NO...well on most of my class yes but i still got a 70 something for Pre Calc. No matter how hard I try I just can't come to comprehend it at all. But I'm really not giving two shits about it anymore.

So I finally have all my applications sent out for college's. I had sent Marywood out a couple days after the first two were sent out and then over the weekend I filled out the Penn State application online and just sent it in about 5 minutes ago. So now I just need to wait and hear back from them. Hopefully I will be able to get into Penn State Main, but as of now I'm taking what I can get. By December 15 th I should know the answers to two college's.

Yea so Kairos is this weekend. Let me tell you that I am SoOoOoOoOoOoOoO excited about it my head is about to explode. I really don't want to make a big deal out of it to the people who aren't going because I always remember how some people got when the seniors came back from it or before it and they were always complaining about the people talking about it. So I just talk about it to people who I know are going. I really need to start getting all my stuff together for that so I don't forget anything. Knowing me that will probaly happen though. The only thing is I know i will pack like crazy and we are only going to be there for 4 days. As long as I can carry what I bring though, there is no problem. WOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO 4 DAYS LEFT.

So yea now I have to start christmas shopping already. I have no idea what I am going to get anyone. It seems like we just had christmas from 2003 and now I have to work on 2004's. I TELL YOU ITS CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!! Yea and Kristin tells me on Saturday that she has already gotten my present. she is a crack head LOL j/k (you know I love you) BUt yea so now i have about 3 weeks to get all that shopping done. Yesterday, we already went and got our christmas tree.. I mean talk about rushing the holiday. By the time christmas comes the freaking tree will be dead. BUt my mom wants it already. I'm just going to have to deal with it.

So the whole buying a new house has come up again and we are actually looking at some house's. It is crazy my senior year in high school my mom deciedes that now is the time that we have to move because she just needs to get out of ptown. Who can guess where she wants to go? In the middle of nowhere practically. I mean she is looking at one house in Fleetwood. The is one mother of a drive for me to be making to go to school then work at CVS and by the time I actually get done if i work until 10, I won't get home until like 11:30-12. Not even that, WHO in the world is going to come see me there. NO ONE!!!!!! I mean she mind as well move us down to TEXAS where she will be able to find the type of house she wants. But we will see what happenes. OK well i am off to bed because I'm about to pass out right here. Later

Study Hall yet again

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 14:46:47 GMT

Here I am in study hall yet again. Mr. Ferris isn't here because his son is getting surgery :( poor him. Don't want to go to the cafe when he isn't here its not fun. Yea so the computers are being really gay in here and it keeps signing me on my BL but like two seconds later shuts it off. And it took forever to get on here to write in the journal, but now i really don't want to anymore.

Yea so i just took Kristin's quiz and I failed. Not really but I got a 70 on it. 3 questions wrong. NOT GOOD. Then she showed me this cute email. We laughed about it. And then we stopped. OK well i really don't want to be doing this so I am going. Later

BUSY BUSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 16:25:42 GMT

So I haven't posted in a long time. Things have been kind of crazy around here and just haven't had time to. OK so here is what I have been up to:
The weekend was awesome! Couldn't ask for more to do. Every weekend its seems like I have more fun than the last one. They only thing I wish I did have was more sleep involved. That is the hardest part of the weekend b/c i really never get any sleep.
Monday I finally sent two of my college applications out:The University of Scranton and LaSalle. They were sent out for early action, so I should know by December 15th if i am in at least one college or not. That way I won't be freaking out over Christmas break that I am not accepeted anywhere. Hopefully it won't be that way. Now I just have to send out Marywood and Penn State.
Tuesday we had this presentation at school on Drug Awareness. Let me tell you that I thought it was going to be another one of those stupid things that the person sits there and tells you don't do drugs how they are bad and tell you there whole life story that you don't know if it is true or not. BUT let me tell you it was not that at all. There were 2 Philadelphia police there who delt with all the different things with drugs. They had pictures of people who where killed trying to get drugs, people there who died while taking drugs, people in the morge, people with needles sticking out of the arms, people who ripped there skin off and sOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much more. It was really gross. No one was ready for that kind of presentaion. I mean there where so many people sitting there crying while watching this and I was one of them. It was just sooo sad and I think people should see it especially if they are involved in drug. It gives you a whole new perspective on things.
Then on Wednesday in study hall, what a great period. It was just soo funny. Me and Kristin where probally laughing non stop the whole time. First we started laughing because Mr. Ferris asked us to finish this statement and he read something and Kristin finished it for him. It was this long thing and I turn around when she was done and go "where the hell did you learn that from!" Kristin starts laughing and goes in Mr. Ferris class, that we had homework on it the other night. Well we start cracking up and i mean to the point where we could not breath. I thought i was going to die. Mr. Ferris was laughing to. Well after we were done laughing I asked if I could see my homework from that night to see what I wrote and apparently I wrote the whole thing down that Kristin stated. Who knows. Then Kristin told me about a friend that she saw walking around here house that fell in a whole and that was so funny that we just kept laughing and laughing. Then the last thing that I was made fun of was apparently Kristin and Mr. ferris told me about this project we have to due 2 weeks ago. Well yesterday while sitting in s.h. they were talking about it and i was like what project. So they had to explain it to me all over again. Mr. Ferris says its like talking to a brick wall, I'm not a sponge who like to absorb things.These are probaly those kind of things where you have to be there for them to be funny.
Ok well this is what i have been up to. Later

Crazy Day!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 04:58:17 GMT

Ok so today was an exciting/weird day i guess you could say. Went into school today and had to take my Poli Sci final in study hall because I had a doctors appointment and would have enough time to do the test and there was no way I was taking a harder test. So the test only took my 20 minutes, which is a record for me on final, i usually take forever. So i was thinking either I really knew the INFO and got most of them right or I knew jack crap and was just putting down answers. Well Mr. Ferris starts checking my test with me right there, so of course I start freaking out because I have already had somewhat of a crappy week last week and some parts of the weekend sucked and was finally at an inbetween happy and didn't want to lose that. Well when he was done checking it i saw him put a 90 on the front page. Let me tell you that shocked the hell out of me. I have not passed a test in his class yet, but the fact that there were no essays on there was another factor in that but still i got a freakign 90 WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!So then at 12 i had a doctors appointment and let me tell you after i left that office i felt so violated. Girls you all know what I am talking about. It just was not cool at all. Put it off as long as possible b/c being a girl fucking sucks. But on the up side i don't have to go back for another year. Then i went to physical therapy at 3 and when i was supposed to be "walking" on the tredmill, i uped the speed alittle and started jogging. I am soooo excited about that. I can't wait until i can go full out running. I really am not the fond of running but when not being able to do it for 7 months min. you want to do it. And the even better thing is that my ankle is not hurting at all. The only weird thing was after i was done the 15 minutes of jogging and 50 calories lost (i love those machines lol) my legs felt like JELLO. So after therapy i had to run to the mandatory drama club meeting. There we did stage fighting/combat which was fun. Bethany was my partner and i hurt her hand when slapping it. SORRY HUN! but we had a fun time beating the shit out of eachother. WE really didn't though. lol But yea this weekend had KB's partyyyyy and that was a blast. have some pictures on my profile from it. Nachoes and Hoff are so funny. Those two crack me up. I am excited that they are going on Karios with me in Decemeber. Every one in the world is going on the one in December and its going to be a BLAST. 24 DAYS AWAY WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! OK well now i have to go back to studying for FB's final tomorrow, wishful thinking but i hope i get another 90 and even a 90 on pre calc which that i doubt will happen. BUt anyway goodnight, sweet dreams. later

CRAZY WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 05:14:03 GMT

Yea so I haven't written here in awhile. Alot has happened since the Powederpuff championship.

So on Thursday in school we had a costume day for Halloween and Kirstin and my idea didn't work with being Betty and Willmia from the Flinstones. So instead I took Bethany's strawberry costume from freshman year for halloween and was a Straberry for school. Alot of freshamn were like OMG i can't believe she is doing that but when your a senior you could give two shits about if it looks retarded.

On Friday we had spirit day nothing big happened there. Then on Saturday was Homecoming. Went to school at 9 in the morning to help set up. I am fucking crazy because even though i hate Pius that much if i'm not a work or in school, it always seems like i'm up there for something even on the weekends. But anyway set up for that and got done around 11. Then went to the game at 12. Of course we lost but I have to say the football team put up a good fight and they had them most of the game up until half time. You guys did great though. Then me and Krisitn left early and got ready at my house. Then the dance was fuckign awesome. I'm glad I went, wouldn't want to miss my senior homecoming. I have to say that was my best one ever. But it hasn't kicked in that its the lat one at pius. After the dance I went up to KU to hang out with my brother. Lets just say that was fun like always. We have our motto, "What happenes in Kutztown, stays in Kutztown!" and that is what i am sticking to. LOL awesome time there like always.

Sunday went to eastern state penitentiary with Kristin, Maggie, Lauren and Bri. so the site says the last tour is at 4pm on sundays. So we got there at 4pm and they tell us that it doesn't start until 7pm. So the 5 of us are in Philly not knowing where anything is and with all of us the people we knew in Philly were all working. So with 3 hours to kill what to we do. DRIVE AROUND, which was fun...i'm glad it happened like that. We went and got food. If it wasn't for the navigation system in Kristin's dad car then we would probally still be lost in philly. We named the navigation thing but i can't think of it right now. Then we went to the Art museum and saw channel 3 and 6 news aroudn there so we went to see what they were doing. We met Vernon Odeal who whatever his name is from channel 6 news. He is mean, we don't liek him anymore. But then at 7 we went back there andlet me tell you that was awesome too. I now have brusies on me because of Kristin but that is OK. I was scared, but i liked it. If you haven't i would def. go

Ok well i better get going to bed. I will probally have alot to write about tomorrow. Later

POWDERPUFF Chamionships!!!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 04:10:22 GMT

OK so yesterday we had the powderpuff games and the Seniors played the freshman and of course we WON!!!!!!!!!!!! oh yea. Wel today we had to play against the juniors for the championship and we almsot had them. It was a freaking awesome game. Went into overtime twice, but they did beat us by scoring a touchdown in the second overtime. Shannon Bowes did awesome but it just wasn't meant to be. Mr. Mullarkey was way into the game and was calling stuff onthe juniors like holding but never called it on his own team. And those refs man some of them shouldn't have been out there. But anyway we had alot of fun and that is all that matters. But i really shouldn't have been running with my ankle. When I came home today, my foot was sooo swollen, but i got it to go down, now it is jsut hurting alot. But i'll get over the pain. LOL

So this weekend is going to be so fucking awesome. On friday i will hopefully going to see someone ;)I will do everything in my power to do this. The only way I won't is if i'm lying on my death bed. Then on Saturday I have the homecoming game and dance WOOHOO. But this is the lst ST. PIUS homecoming i will ever go to :'(, we are going to have so much fun. Then I'm going up to Kutztown to my brother's for some parties. That is going to be awesome! Then Sunday Eastern State Penitentray (probaly not spelled right but that's ok) anyone who wants to come is welcome. The last tour is at 4 and its in Philly so about an hour away. And then Monday a wonderful day off of school. Can not get any better than this. Well a couple things could happen, but I am perfectly fine with all of this for right now.

So yea I have a Hamlet test tomorrow and I am not going to be doing to great on that. If it was question questions that I would be able to do it, but the fact that it is all essay's that is just going to kill me. What is the deal with all my teachers having essay test. NOT COOL. They all say that is what happens in college, well I am not in college yet so don't do it. When I get there I will worry about that. I don't want to have to be stressing out about essay test that I am having on something I have no clue on yet with everythinng else i've been stessing about. But i've study tonight and will tomorrow so hopefully that will be good enough. Ok well I think i'm going to go to bed cause the past two days I've been feeling like I'm getting sick and that is not happening this weekend. So yea goodnight and Later.

Study Hall!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 13:36:21 GMT

Hey Hey, I'm in study hall right now and am bored. NO one is on AIM so I can't talk to them and Kristin is sitting right next to me, but we did IM eachother for like 2 seconds.

So today is PowderPuff football. SENIOR's are going to kick some ass! Me and Kristin are just going to stand in the touchdown zone and catche the ball since we both can't run with having surgery this summer. The shirts are so awesome that we got.

I am so hyper right now with it being spirit week. Me and Kristin and Steph just found over 200 points with the paw and lion prints. WOOHOO for us. Now we just got to keep finding more so SENIORS will get the points.

So yea Homecoming game and dance on Saturday. SO excited, CAN"T WAIT. And then Sunday is Halloween. Corn maze at Royersford and then Eastern State Penatentry (can't spell as you all know) in Philly. Anyone welcome to come if they would like. The more the scarier. So yea I have nothing else to write about so I'm done. Later

Study Hall

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 13:31:59 GMT

OK so here I am in study hall. So last night I finally got on CollegeBoard.com to check my SAT's scores and let me tell you that they SUCK! I don't know how any can get a worse grade from the first time that they took them, but apparently I DID. Its a obviously showing that I am getting stupider! WEll that is probaly going to help me alot with solving the whole college problem now. Yay for me!
So I am excited tonight I am going to Shocktoberfest with people from work. I hope that I gt scared, even though things don't scare me much. That might be a big problem. As long as I am not expecting something to happen then and someone jumps out at me then I will probaly get scared shitless. I am sure it will be fun.
OK so anyway yea I have nothing else to talk about now.
42 days until Karios (can't wait, sOoOoOoO excited)
230 till graduation

SHARE!!!

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 04:50:24 GMT

Today we had our Senior Day of Reflection and let me tell you how I had a blast doing it. I seriously think...well know, that this was the nest one of all four years. The job I did today was count a whole room filled with boxes, which sounds stupid, but it was so much fun. We had like over 6,000 boxes. It was crazy. So some great things that happened today:

* Had a tower of boxes fall on top of me(quite hilarious, and let me tell you, that you can get a headache from it)
*ME: Where are the paper?
Krstin: On top of the boxes!
Me: Oh! Here they are.
Chris: On top of the boxes? Wow that narrows it down
(that was the greatest thing in the world)

But besides that awesome day there, the rest of the day was pretty much the same old crap. When does it get better? Well I guess i'll be going now. I want to go check my SAT scores and hopefully won't have to take that crapy test anymore. Later

Taking over

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 02:15:52 GMT

So for the most part today was a really good day for me. Didn't have school today because the underclassmen have the Terra Nova testings today and tomorrow. So seniors got off today and tomorrow. Though tomorrow we do go on our Senior Reflection day, which i'm excited about. I also didn't have to work today either. For some reason I have been getting every Wednesday and Sunday off lately, which I am loving. So tonight I decided that I am just going to fill out applications to where I want to go to college at. And then once I get accepted or rejected me and my mom can fight about where I am going, which I guarantee will be happening. And I will not give up without a huge fight. Hopefully with no problems I will just get into the one I want the most. So I have decided that I'm going to stop trying to please everyone, its time that I start pleasing myself and putting myself before everyone else, which I tend to do alot. I have been figuring out alot of stuff that I do is not really making me happy, it just makes everyone around me happy and that has been working for so long now, its what I have come costumed too. But no more. If it doesn't make me happy than why the hell should I be doing it. I really don't care if its going to be arguments about every little thing now, because in the end it will be worth it because its what I really want deep down inside. SO hopefully I can stick to my plan and able to say I don't care if you like it or not to other people.

44 days until Karios
232 days until graduation (including weekends and holidays)

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 03:50:53 GMT

Yea so today did't get any better at all. Waking up for school came way to early to begin with. And then I still had a headache from over the night. Don't understand why all the sudden I am getting all these headaches. I just love how everybody knows when you are in a pissed off mood and pushes all the buttons to make your day even worse. In 1st period we had Voc, so I just put my head down since I wansn't feeling good and of course the teacher had to call on me even better yet for a word I had no idea how to say so I was the lucky one and had to stand up since I couldn't pronounce it. I was pretty much in a pissy mood the whole day so nothing great and exciting happened at all. By the end of 7th period I was ready to kill a certain teacher that pissed me off beyond extremes. So with not being in school yesterday they took notes in Pre Calc so me and Sarah had to copy them. Mrs. Szaly yelled at us for copying the notes and said it was time to do the practice problems. I couldn't do them because I didn't have the notes and had to get them. Then she was yelling at me and Sarah and made me get up and move across to the other side of the room. I mean come on what the hell. I am really frustrated with her right about now and don't think I can sit through another class of hers. I will honestly go insane form it. The woman can't teach. The only good thing about today was that I found out what I got on my Physics test. A 68, which I am extatic about. I thought I failed that whole thing, but I got only 1 of the word problems wrong. I must have knew more than I thought. Work was ok I guess. Work about 21 hours again next week, not fun. Ok well thats about all the complaning I have in me for now. Later

Rough Day

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 04:16:04 GMT

Today was a mixed day for me. Went on the Shakespeare trip today, which was really fun. Had a great time in the workshop's we did. The best we the improve that we did after we ate lunch. Freeze Tag Improve was the best. Had no idea where order # 5 1/2 came from, it doesn't exist. LOL The show the people put on after wards was really good too. I was so tired I started to drift off at one point but then I woke up. So then I came home and that's when my sucky day began. Reality hit me and I realized a couple things about college and leaving next year and all the things that will go on after that. Then I started thinking about everything that's going on in my life right now, and how almost perfect things are at this point to an extent. So yea my mom calls me at work and starts yelling at me for crap about my brother. He is freaking 15 years old, the kid should be able to take care and look after himself for the most part. I control everything he does and make him do things he doesn't want to. Besides she couldn't wait untill I got home to yell at me about it, she had to call me at work and do it. Then I had to leave work early to pick my brother up from scout and what did I do when I got there. YES I sat there for a half an hour waiting for him. He was supposed to be done at 9 but did he come out, NO. Not until 9:30, and the fact that I have not been feeling to hott these past two nights isn't helping at all either. So yea, right now I just have so many things running through my mind and i have no idea where to begin. I really just want to sort everything out and figure it all out. I won't a couple things to change right now, but am afraid of the move I want to make and how it might ruin things between me and some people. Have NO clue what to do. Ok well got to go figure this out. Later

Another GREAT day!!!!!

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 03:17:05 GMT

So today was another GREAT day! Got to sleep in today because the underclassmen had the PSAT's and seniors don't have to take them because we do the SAT's. So had the day off and slept until 10. Then Kristin and I went to Target to get some Halloween decorations to decorate the Cafe with at school. Had a great time there. We always do whenever we go there. The bigger bags of candy will always cost more money Bone lol OMG while we were there in the Halloween ilse we found this 4 ft tall Shrek that inflates by himself and OF COURSE we had to buy that to put in the cafe. While we were decorating we took the Shrek and both kissed it on a check. That's going to be our prom date. We will have to share. Then we went to her house and got corn stalks to take with us. That was one messy job there. We had to shove it into her car and let me tell you how we were being attacked by corn stalks all the way to Pius. NOT FUN, but was fun! Everyone probally thought we were hicks. But that's ok. Then went to Corropalese and got a tomaoe pie. Decorating was fun. Had alot of great time there. The cafe actually looks pretty decent now. But knowing the kids that are in my class alone all the decorations will most likely be ruined my tomorrow at the end of the day. I'll will be kicking so butt if it does happen. I didn't spend my day off to make our school look better for a bunch of butheads to mess it up. After we were done at school came home and did some stuff around the house. Now I can feel that a huge Migraine coming on. Took some stuff to try and prevent it form being as bad, but its not working to much. Tomorrow I go on a Shakespeare trip. Excited about that, haven't really been on a field trip since 8th grade year when we went to Gettysburg. so YAY!!!!!!!! OK well thats about it for today. Later

Nothing can ruin this HIGH!!!!!

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 03:26:03 GMT

OK so i haven't written in here in awhile. So here is the update of my weekend. Had to work on Friday night. Was kinda fun in some ways and wasn't in some ways. I hated that we got busy, which we usually don't on Friday night. The good thing is I got to go home early because of having SAT's on Saturday morning, so the pharmacist let me go home at 10 instead of 10:30. Then on Saturday had to go take the SAT's. I think I did a whole LOT better on them then the first time. I knew alot of the answer/ what I was doing. Either that or I really could give a rat's butt and was just putting answers and thought I knew what I was doing. Then after that went and did some stuff with Bethany. Had alot of fun doing that. Ask me and maybe I will tell you. Then went to the football game. Of course we lost, but the guys on the team did their best with what has been going on up at Pius. Then went and had some fun Saturday night. One of those don't tell things, even if asked. LOL I know you all wish you could know. Sunday started to help my mom clean the house for my after Homecoming party. I know kinda early to start cleaning, but with school and work, I never have any other time to clean and it has to be done before Homecoming. That was fun to an extent. Oh and one of the best things about all weekend was that I walked around everywhere without my air cast on. It's starting to hurt now. Yea so so today. What can I say. I about 90% sure that I found the college that I want to go to. I went to visit Marywood and Scranton University today. I love Marywood. I love everything about it. The campus is beautiful. Its in the middle of the Pocono's kind of and I love the whole outdoors up there. Its especially looked good today with it being fall and all the trees in different colors. The people up there are really really friendly and are soo nice. They have my major which I would def. need in order to go there. They have a study abroad program and even with nursing you are able to do it. That has been my dream for like ever to do go to school in England, Italy, or even Australia. So I will def. be looking into that more. Met with one of the people in my department. We do alot of hands on experience with all our school curriculum which I like a whole lot more than getting lectured. Its hard for me to learn that way with my wandering mind. There's just so much more to love but I don't feel like typing it. I got to see SU too. I like the campus there too. That was all they did today at SU, was take us around the campus. I really loved there campus too. So if the academics are just as good as Marywood, it will be a hard choice.I will have to go up again on the open house to talk to the teachers in my department. I'm scheduling an over night visit at Marywood and then they have something where I can spend a day with a student in my major and see what it is like so i am def. doing that. So far this weekend has been so amazing and I don't think that it could get anymore better than it is right now. Well I can think of one thing but I doubt that will happen right now. I'll just have to wait.
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life
These are the moments, I know heaven must exist,
These are the moments, I know all I need is this.

Great Day!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 22:32:56 GMT

Today has been such a great day for a change. I actually got to bed at a reasonable time last night 12:45-1. So this morning it was easy getting up, though I still layed in bed a couple minutes longer. School was great! We had a college fair. Got to look at some colleges that are not Catholic one's. Seems like every college I looked at so far at Catholic one's and I want to try and stay away from that since I've been going there since kindergarden. Starting to understand the stuff we are doing in physics. So happy that I'm not lost and the teacher moved our test back until next week. YAY! :-D So glad I took the Pol-Sci and Shakespeare classes. Those are my two favorite classes this year and Poli-Sci comes right after Shaekpeare which makes it better. I love Mr. Ferris he is so funny and so is Mr. Matt. So I am happy because I have NO homework tonight and I also got the day off. It's a miracle. Its good cause I can enjoy my day off and don't have to bed all stressed out. OK well have to go back cupcakes for the Spirit Club bake sale tomorrow. Later!!!

HYPER!!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 05 Oct 2004 04:40:17 GMT

Well here is yet another entry. Sunday was pretty crazy. I didn't go to bed until 4-430 on Saturday night. But that was my own falut I was on the phone the whole time. Then I got up around 9. Had to be at work at 1, which wasn't bad until like 4 o'clock . Then I wanted to put my head into a wall at that point. So when I came home Sunday night, I had to do all my homework, wasn't much there. I stayed up until 2-230. Had to get up at 6 to be at school to decorate the girls soccer team lockers for spirit club. I love Ms. Ficarro. She brought in coffee, which was my best friend today, but I got pretty pissed when we ran out of sugar. eww black coffee. You would think with the lack of sleep i've had all weekend I would be tired as hell. Well i'm NOT. I am more hyper than ever. I could be jumping off walls anytime soon.School was good as usually. Getting into the flow of things and physics is getting a little better, kinda sorta. Starting to get a little fed up with work. They know I will work if they need me and I feel like i'm being abused by them. I hardly get days off and when I do get more than 1 in a week, one is usually something I had to ask off for. But i guess I won't be complaining when I see those nice big checks. Ok well i'm going to go jump around I need to tire myself out some so I can get some sleep tonight. That bear down there looks like he is on crack. LOL

Crazy Crazy Crazy

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 02:58:40 GMT

Yea so this weekend has been so great so far.Last night was such a great day/night. After school went to the doctors and found out I can start walking without my "boot" for a little. I can only go 2 or 3 hours without it a first and if it starts hurting I have to put it back on. But I really don't care anything is better than nothing. My doctor says that it feels really tight in my ankle now and the EXACTLY what we want, and I'm doing really good with my physical therapy. So WOOOHOOO for me. So then when i'm on my way to the game with Kristin, we were in the car at the Boyertown exit going to the game and while we were waiting at the light I start blowing into the funal thingy to make your cheer louder and a car goes by as i'm making noises and there are two guys inthe car and then they start staring at me and laughing. But I didn't care because it was funny, I felt like a big dork, but when don't I. We tried doing a Chinese firedrill at the light but Mrs. Cebula wound up pulling up behind Kristin and we didn't feel like getting in trouble, so we didn't.Then the game SUCK but that's OK because spirit club rocked. For the small amount of people who came we did really good with the cheering. It was fun until I had to take all the stupid paint off my face. After the game went to the movies and saw Ladder 49 (Kristin I got it right finially, but I had to think about it for a couple seconds before I typed it) LOL Such a great movie, I would definitly go see it again. It was sooooo sad though. I was crying at the end and was trying so hard not to becuase I didn't want all the blue and gold paint running all over my face. Lucky for ME it didn't. I think there was to much on my face and on there for so long it wasn't coming off. SO me and Kristin got some stares going into the theater last night. Hasn't anyone ever seen people show spirit towards there school. After that went back to Kristin's house. Called nathan for her since she was scared. (hey Kris i'm glad you at least had 22 minutes of fun last night. lol j/k) Then this morning got up early again ( I never get to sleep in even on the weekends) brought my brother home and then went back to Kristin's to work on then scrapbook. Of course after going to Target. Kris we need to open our eyes up and then maybe we can find what we are looking for LOL After working onm that for awhile I had to leave to get ready for work, which I had to be there at 3 until 9. WHAT FUN. Of course I got suckered into going in early tomorrow because I can never say NO. So now instead of working form 4 to 9,which I thought was 3to 9, i'm now working 1-9. I'm such a dumbass.But the good thing is work went by really really fast tonight. But that's about all for my weekend so far, now i'm going to go do something. Don't know exactly what yet. Later